My story - ***Trigger Warning***
I am feeling very overwhelmed, stressed, frustrated, lonely and very unimportant.
I am being abused by my parents. They keep hitting me and yelling at me and saying that they wish they only had my siblings. They also say that they don't love me and that I am not important.
I am also still being sexually assaulted. I feel like its all my fault. He keeps telling me that it's my fault. He has a knife and other weapons that he uses during the assaults. It's very scary. He also told me that if I tell anyone about what he is doing he will hurt me. It took a lot of courage to write about this here.
I want to harm myself so that I don't have to live with any more pain. I just think its the easy way out. No one would care if I was gone everyone would get what they want. I think it's my only option.
I also think that no one cares or believes me. When I told my parents about the assaults they didn't care or believe me.
I keep having flashbacks. They are getting really bad. They are happening very frequently. I keep seeing the assaults playing over and over again and it feels like I am reliving them.
I am not important enough for anyone or for this world. I am very worthless. I am trying to be strong but I can't I just really want to give up on everything. I can't hold on anymore.
@SingingStar13
This is a very sad post to read. I believe you. You are no more or less valid than any other human, you aren't worthless. In my opinion the single most important job of a parent is to unconditionally love, nurture and support thier children. I want to be angry at your parents. I really hope that you get chance to report the abuser to the police. I feel frustrated that I can't help. I'll be thinking about you. You are not worthless.
