My past experience with PTSD

Hello everyone, I guess i'm here to share my story with PTSD

TRIGGER WARNING---- SEXUAL ASSAULT// DRUG USE//FORCED DRUG USE

I was 16 at the time, it was the summer of 2018. I had gone on a camping trip with my family and extended family (cousins, aunts, you get it) anyways, my best friend at the time was my cousin, let's name him Mike. Anyways, i knew that he really liked marijauna, and i was kinda opposed to it because it smelled nasty. Anyways, one night it was just him and I, we were just chilling. He pulls out a blunt and begins to smoke. He offers, and i politely decline. He nods, understanding. We were both sitting on the hammock, just talking, when he gets up and goes into his tent. He brings out a brownie/snack mix, and i oblige, me not knowing it was an edible mix.

Half an hour later, I guess you could say i was really high. I wasn't really thinking straight, so the rest of this is, well, foggy. Anyways, he began to touch me, slowly at first, just on the small of my back reaching for what i would think was innapropriate. I knew that this was wrong, but everything was moving in slow motion. I remember giggling and telling him to stop, and him stopping. I remember him urging me into his tent, and me saying no i dont want to go.Other things happened, but i'm here to tell you IVE SURVIVED.

im doing better, and im proud of myself. no matter where you are, you aren't alone, i understand past hurts & struggles, and urge you to continue towards your recovery