Me- The strongest and the weakest person i have ever met.
Hi to everyone reading this. I dont even know where to start my story but I am starting it now and here,no matter what .
This will be my diary and now i want to introduce myself. First of all thank you for being here you wonderful people.
During my life i have tough periods but never like this time. Few events changed my life and from this point od view i belive that i suffer from PTSD. Usually when i felt down earlier in my life i isolated myself for a while from everyone til i heal myself. Why? because i am strong person, because i help other people , because only few know my weak side. So this happend again 5 months ago. I started ignoring my phone , i stared ignoring messages on facebook, i turned off my phone and i staied in my comfortable zone. 5 months i staied .. The days were passing and i only knew that it will get better but i didnt done any effort.. Until 2 days ago.
To days ago i faced one of the people responsible for my situation How dare him to contact me after everything he done to me? How dare him to tell me that he loves me? . And i suddenly "woke up". I found this place and i promised to myself that this will be my first step to my recovery. I will share events of my past here. I enjoy encourageing people here and I find it helpful for me as well because when i advise someone i belive in the optimistic things that i am writeing to that person..
Our brain is the hardest prison to escape.
Hugs and support to you. Yes YOU!
To be continued...
Glad to found u wonderful people.
@courageousCake401 Hey Cake 
Its good to see that you have found a place where you feel safe to start your diary. I hope you feel safe enough to continue to do this 
There are some great members here and I hope they stop by to read your diary too.
Healing from trauma and dealing with PTSD is tough. Its like a roller coaster with ups and downs but when you start healing, the the journey has more level periods or easier times, and the tough times get fewer and easier to cope with over time. Its not a quick fix and it doesnt happen over night. But we are here to walk side by side in that journey with you
You say up until 5 months ago you used to isolate yourself until a few days ago until you faced someone responsible. I wonder how that felt for you? From reading in your diary I sense a lot of anger which you have every right to feel and you should be angry!! He had no right to do whatever he did to you!
And yes our minds can feel like a prison but you know what, we also have that key to let ourselves out of that prison too
