Just Wanted To Get It Out (Trigger Warning: Sexual)

I'll just make this quick..

In October last year, I met this "girl" on an app meant for fans of any community to meet and make friends and we ended up together for 2 months. Long story short, "she" turned out to be a catfisher and I was devastated.

Being the lonely fool I was, I sent her nudes and even a video. Now, I can't live my life peacefully because I'm so terrified of the possibility that these things might come back to haunt me. I already told my mom about the whole thing but this afternoon in Drawing class, I was drawing body proportions and got reminded of this incident which made me do my work as fast as possible so I didn't have to deal with looking at the nude models. They weren't even actual pictures, they were just shapes connected to look like a human body but my mind was racing and I wanted to scream and run out of the room. Nothing like this has happened before probably because I've been repressing all these memories and now they're making their way out. I'm so scared and fearful. I don't want to deal with it. I just want it to be over.