It gets worse before it gets better?
I am just reaching out for I don't even know what tonight. I recently got started with a psychiatrist and have an appointment with a therapist and have started taking some online mindfulness and coping skills classes. This is not the first time I have tried to get help but in the past I haven't been able to stay stable through the initial meeting the doctors and starting to talk about the trauma.
I have a complex personality system that has developed over many years and we do not cope well at all with anything negative or painful. I have been told that starting therapy can makes things harder to live through before it gets better and I am honestly scared of beginning this journey. I don't have memories and I don't think I want them. I want to be strong but then again I realize that I may not be strong enough.
I am working hard to prepare my life for what may happen. I am working on implementing ideas people have shared with me on staying grounded and self care...but the anxiety is high just thinking about what I need to do to prepare myself.
Anyway, I am just sharing because that is part of my therapy needs...to be able to voice what I am feeling. I have barely spoke to people for a long time, so just talking at all is difficult for me to do.
@TeenyTinyAppy
I totally understand what that feels like. Therapy can be really scary. I had a rough time about a year ago and was very scared to reach out for help. The hardest part was the first therapy session, after that it became a lot easier. Once you become more comfortable with your therapist it will be a very big relief and you'll be able to make so much progress. Keep in mind that not all therapists are the right fit, I would suggest to give your new therapist a month, and if you still feel like you're not comfortable or not making any progress it is perfectly reasonable to look for other therapists.
@TeenyTinyAppy
"Things could only get better", I think it was a song...
Going to a therapist cannot go bad before it goes better...that may go for withdrawal...
If you are lucky to find a good therapist they would make you welcome and safe....Idon't think you need any shock therapy...
I wish you confidence and that things will go better foryou🤗😊
