Feeling numb after Domestic Violence and Rape by ex boyfriend
I feel numb and I feel as if I can't feel anything. I know I'm alive and that I'm alive. I don't wish harm on myself or anything like that, I just feel so numb. It's as if I can't react to things and there's not many people who truly understand what I've been through. My ex boyfriend abused me for years and I stayed silent from all the abuse and rape.... My therapist told me about emotional bounding to a an Abuser due to gaslighting and emotional blackmail. And how Victims end up loving their abuser even though they harmed them. Stockholm Sydrome. This is a term I'm now getting familiar with and I'm now realizing that what he did was horrible.... I never spoke a word of it because I was afraid he'd kill me or possibly hurt me cause he had guns inside his house.
Is it possible I'll ever feel emotions again at all? Sorry if this was triggering to anyone but I feel so alone right now....
edited by dancingRainbow45 Moved to more appropriate place in our forums
I have also encountered feelings of numbness, after experiencing trauma. I can relate. I know how you feel. There is a change which takes place in some victims, which is having a traumatized brain. As the previous poster mentioned, I think that the numbness can be a way for the mind to protect itself, in the face of negative happenings.
All the best in your recovery.
