Dear diary (comments are welcome) *may be triggering*

Hello, Wow, this week has been hard... I started at a gym to keep my mind busy and also hella busy with school. Finals are coming so I’ve been studying all hours of the day then at night I make my way to the gym. I haven’t gave myself time to think until now. I thought I was pregnant... I’m newly married and travel with my husband for his work. We stopped using protection five months ago... I thought this time was it but it wasn’t ... I don’t know if it’s my body or the stress... I took my test .. it was negative again. 5 months and nothing. I won’t give up hope but I’ve also never wanted a child before meeting my partner. This is all so new to me... I hope to see that plus sign but also kinda wondering how long that will be..