Dear Diary
This weekend I’m back home to visit family with my husband. We haven’t been home in 3 months. We live on the road due to COVID and aren’t in one place longer than a few months. It’s a life of adventure like we have always wanted to experience with each other before settling down.... so all of our family expects us to visit them while we are home and really all I wanna do is be in my own home and soak it up a bit. We are never home and we are newly married so home is special to us but family puts a lot of pressure on us to be present whenever possible. Just a lot of feelings rush back when being under that family pressure. Tons of memories of family trauma... why should I spend all my time rushing around for a family that has never bothered to meet me even half way to visit me? Even when I am home they aren’t showing up to my house to make things easier on us...
So frustrating when family can’t see past their own needs and wants to what is best for you. I’m sorry your family are behaving that way. I encourage you to not let them suck the enjoyment out of your time home by guilting you into being the only one reaching out. It’s never selfish to take care of yourself. I am sending you good thoughts to stay strong.
