Coping With A Break- My Episodes

I'm currently on a break with my boyfriend (I don't know what else to call him right now, even though we're not together at the moment) because he has a LOT going on, that I found out, but unfortunately not from him. I feel like it's not my place to know, but it helped me understand why he needs the time to himself, he never opens up to me or anyone else besides his dad, but I never want to pressure him because he'll talk to me when he's ready and comfortable enough, I believe anyway.

But a big thing that hurt him during our relationship, that he never told me about until we talked about the break (aka, the both of us breaking down and him riding his bike in the rain to give me a hug), were my traumatic episodes. But the thing is that my triggers are just about EVERYTHING now. I can smell something that smells like *person's* house, or hear something that reminds me of them and I'll break down. He was so convinced that he wasn't any help, when in reality, he calmed me down when I was hyperventilating and I focused on his voice as he just held me and talked to me, he makes me feel so safe and it's hard to tell him how much he helps because he's so stubborn. But it killed him when I accidentally told him that his hands felt like *person's* at one point because it crossed my mind during a breakdown. He doesn't want that. And the quarantine makes things worse, so I'm just hoping that things will be okay.