Can anyone help me?????
Hello my name is Lostlove. I thought it was time to share my story in hopes of finding someone who can help lead me to a positive life. Since I can remember I have not had a positive view in life. At the age of 3 or 4 I remember being bribed to by a young girl to do things. I really don't remember much of my childhood. My parents argued often due to my father drinking but I really can't remember anything. Just my dad falling and breaking his leg, or them fighting and him leaving for a while. Then at 15 I had my first boyfriend in which I married 9 mths later . I just wanted to be loved. I was married for 9 yrs almost ten til my so called friend left with my husband. Since 98 my life has gone down to the pits of hell. In 2002 my oldest daughter left with her dad, my youngest ( different father ) was kidnapped by her father and my mother died of cancer . This all happen in less than a year. My life has crashed fast after this. Three years later my son leaves . I met a man who manipulated me for 12 yrs ( who just now found God) and have been living a life I hate. I suffer from depression , I have attempted suicide , I'm a survivor to physical , mental , verbal and sexual abuse. I lived with an addict for 12 yrs. I been lied to repeatedly . I trust no one ( find it strange that I trust 7 cups) but I'm coming to you now cause I need help. I endured so many things. A lot I have not written yet. But I don't want this dark cloud anymore. I need positive input. I've been around negativity almost all my life. Please if anyone has dealt with any of this and has overcome please pm me. I need as much of positive input I can get cause I want to be able to say " I'm truly a survivor " . I'm tired of the hurt I carry. Thank you in advance .
sincerely ,
Lostlovetx