Am I faking?
My mom always acts like the things that my dad has done are mean but generally not a big deal?
Am I wrong about my trauma? Am I cr*zy?( sorry for the word choice I couldn't figure out a better one )
Am I being dramatic? Is this what parents do? Am I just being sensitive?.
I am 18 in 4 months and I still don't know if what he's done to me is.considered abuse or if I'm just annoying and stuff.
He shoved me down once. (He apologized)
He got in my face and threatened me.
He has thrown stuff at me.
I feel like I'm walking on eggshells but my Mom acts like this is fine? Is this fine?
My brain is all mixed up and confused and I can't figure out if I can say I have trauma.
I don't know.
-Mark 🐢
@LonelyMarki
You are not crazy.
No, it s not you. You re not being dramatic or anything related. It s not you. It s them.
It s okay to be confused when the two most important people in your life are in a situation so messed up like that.
It s not you. They messed you up. and they shouldn t have.
You are not responsible.
And if they ever tell you something like "This is your fault" or "Look what you ve made me do" then you ll be sure that none of it was you. Never.
@LonelyMarki
Don't take this too hard on yourself buddy. I get you.. i do.
These stuff are ok. I mean.. they could be better.. He could be a more civilized father and treat you better than this..
But it could always get worse.. Tell me something: Does he show you he cares for you from time to time..?
My father has beaten me since I was 8.. I'm 25 now Mark.. Although I absolutely despise him at times, I know he does love me too.. It's mainly his work pressure.. the economics.. and some anger issues. I used to hate him most around 16-20. Now.. not so much.
At the end of the day.. if he cares for you.. It's alright. Leave it all behind. You'll understand it better someday.. when you become a dad yourself. But remember to treat your kids better.
Hi Mark!
I'm new here, so just saw your post. First of all, I'm very sorry that you've had this happen, and I'm sorry that you're confused about the situation, although I think that is an absolutely normal reaction.
From what you've said here, I would say that yes, you have trauma. If you're being threatened or physically abused, that is trauma and is not a healthy situation. Is there someone you can talk to in real life who you feel safe with and could possibly help you sort things out? I'm in my late 50s and grew up in a really bad situation and was never able to even ask for help. It's great that you are able to share and ask about things here. I sincerely hope that you're okay and that things can get better for you.
