Does anyone else deal with this…

Im new on 7 cups.

I am a survivor of long term childhood sexual trauma, and abusive relationship trauma from ages 12-20.

im 31, been married for 10 years. Three kids, 8, 6, and 3.

I can’t have sex without dealing with extreme emotional distress, and panic attacks. I’ve struggled with this my whole marriage.

my husband tells me that when we don’t have sex, I’m causing him to be more likely to turn to porn, cheating or im sentencing him to a sexless life.

but I’m not being malicious. having sex is emotional and mentally retraumatizing every time we do it.

but he is upset that we aren’t doing it more….

what am I supposed to do?

has anyone else dealt with this? Either on the side of struggling with having sex or in the side of a partner of someone who struggles with having sex?