cptsd has ruined me. i hate this so much
it destroys me that my trauma and emotional disregulation has rendered me such a shell of a person. im either too depressed to do anything at all, or so filled with rage and hatred that i fall into incredibly self destructive behavior. either way, it’s too much for my loved ones to deal with, and anyone i’ve let in before has left my life. so i pretend to be calm and strong and functional. im so scared all the time and i can’t talk to anyone about any of this or even share my real feelings because i’ll just make everyone i love leave me again. im so alone. im so scared. i just want help. i just want love.
@ch3rryvamp I'm sorry sweetie 😥 I've been diagnosed with cptsd too. It's not easy. I'm guessing your in therapy for this right? And your safe now?? Hatred of anger is a rare emotion for me, so not sure how to comfort you there, sorry. But your free to talk and vent here, I'm listening. I'll be here for you ❤ gives you a giant tiny hug ❤❤everything is going to be ok ❤
