Summer Vacation Wasted
At the beginning of June, I went through something very serious. It shook me for a long time and I still feel the fear, panic, and dread of that moment.
The sad thing is that my entire summer vacation was spent dwelling on my trauma from that situation. It sucks because I was looking forward to June—when my college year ended. I had multiple resolutions prepared for my summer vacation: learning a new talent, watching TV shows, watching movies, going to the gym, meeting new people, etc.
I couldn’t do most of those things because I was dealing with panic attacks and a constant fear of the future. I also kept having flashbacks to all the bad stuff. Now, my summer vacation is about to end. In two weeks, I’ll be back to college. I can’t help but feel regret over not making the most of my three months of free time. I also can’t help but feel angry that my summer vacation was tainted by a traumatic incident. Normally, I’d feel excited to go back. However, I just feel anxious and terrified to even think about going back to studying.
How do I get over these feelings? What do I do to make up for the lost time?
@TheDimLight You didn’t have any control over the trauma in your life- it’s totally ok that you took some time to process it and take care of yourself! Sometimes all we can do is just hang on for dear life and it doesn’t leave a lot of room for fun.
I understand your apprehension about school, but maybe you can find some pockets of time to take care of yourself now that you’re feeling a bit better. Is there any way that you can make time for some of these bucket list ideas (or at least something similar) between classes?