New Here… PTSD/ Severe Anxiety with depression

I’ll try to keep this short… I’m in my later 30’s have children. Divorced twice. Recently married… I have been struggling a lot lately. I do suffer from PTSD and I have had trauma since the day I was born. I have been told that living a very long and excessive trauma filled life is definitely why I am the way I am… My first two husbands were abusive in every way and cheated on me in the most horribly disgusting ways possible. My childhood was def filled with trauma. I’m not really good at sharing I get nervous and scared about people knowing my weaknesses bc I fear that’s the only reason people ask is to use it against you.

With my new husband, I am currently in a state of not really thinking I’m being cheated on but definitely being “set off” like just noticing things that remind me of my past when I was cheated on. I feel like I’m not being heard at all at home and it makes me care less and less about myself or what I need to do in life. I do see a therapist weekly but I don’t feel like it’s working. We have been talking for 5/6 months now, weekly. And I’m just not feeling any better on any level