It’s up to me..

I am in a self imposed prison in my mind and reality where I am fighting between living a life I have never seen before a life free from violence, emotional and physical abuse, drug and alcohol use and other forms of trauma or continuing on the generational trauma to my children.

I am it. I am the one who has been left with the task of breaking that cycle.

But how can I do this when I seem to still have a victims mentality instead of a survivor mentality.

So much to unpack, to say and see it’s overwhelming where to even begin or how to make sense of it all so out come the bandaids.. until the traumas make that rumble inside again saying I’m still here, still winning, still ruling.