I’m Tired of Being Tired.
I’m miserable. I’m truly sick and tired of reliving my trauma and being plagued my new trauma every single day, or even trauma that doesn’t exist yet. I want an escape. I want to live somewhere else, but I don’t know how, and I’m too scared to bring it up. I’ve thought about the pain and what the consequences would be, but at times I don’t know what to do. Whether to make myself feel pain, or not. I want to bide my time, but at only 14 years old, I don’t know what to do. At this point, it’s no longer just any warning signs. It’s no longer just a plea. This is a cry for help.
@Celc
I'm so sorry you're feeling all of this so long. I think a lot of the feelings resonate with a lot of 14 year olds, but when you add trauma it makes it so much harder! I wish I had some good answer for you to help it feel better now, but getting through "now" will be worth it. If you want to message I'm open to talking more about this. I'm an adult but have the badge to listen to teens. I can't solve anything, but I can listen and share wisdom (if you want it). You deserve to have peace and not have to live with the trauma that exists, or exists in the future. You deserve to be happy and safe and enjoy being 14, so sorry that's not your reality right now.
@InvaderStitch Thank you so much for your kind words. It truly makes me feel happy and seen. :) I promise I’ll reach out to you if I need it, and I want to thank you for volunteering. That means a lot. (Also, Happy New Years! I hope that this year brings you much joy and happiness.) 🫶🏽🫶🏽
So you see if you want help you have tried where many have failed the important thing isn't hat you've tried
You would like so badly to give up, but now you've met someone who won't let you alittle bit.
See, you've come this far and tried to help yourself even.
Now that I feel I have helped you by creating some form of fellowship, we can go ahead and let go and realize around you that you are by the bridge and is having a full body workout, take this strength and use it anywhere even if your speed doubles on the keyboard.
And I know it can be quite painful because my back does hurt I am doing this for us, how does somebody reuse the spirit of what we did here today know that we are proud and the pain has left someplace else.
