How do we fix ourself?

(using 'we' and 'our' bc we are a plural system.)

TW for mentions of abusive behavior, SA, and SH

I feel like we can't hold on anymore. we are so violent and lost. We need to distract ourselves. We can't keep doing this. Lloyd is extremely stressed and traumatized from like 4 alters touching them, I(morro) miss my partner who is sleeping for a LONG time, Katelyn is overworked with protecting the system, and overall, just very stressed. because of one thing, we formed 4 alters. (2 resulting from a split). One of the alters is of our ex who called us abusive for swearing. we are afraid that this current relationship might also be seen as abusive. The body is getting urges to SH and we can't stop them. we are tired.