How do we fix ourself?
(using 'we' and 'our' bc we are a plural system.)
TW for mentions of abusive behavior, SA, and SH
I feel like we can't hold on anymore. we are so violent and lost. We need to distract ourselves. We can't keep doing this. Lloyd is extremely stressed and traumatized from like 4 alters touching them, I(morro) miss my partner who is sleeping for a LONG time, Katelyn is overworked with protecting the system, and overall, just very stressed. because of one thing, we formed 4 alters. (2 resulting from a split). One of the alters is of our ex who called us abusive for swearing. we are afraid that this current relationship might also be seen as abusive. The body is getting urges to SH and we can't stop them. we are tired.
@SaturniidSys
Hi SaturniidSys, I am so sorry you are going through this, I understand how scared and frustrated you must feel. Since you mentioned that your experiencing SH tendencies, I recommend talking to a licensed mental health professional, or calling your local suicide hotline if the SH gets worse.
@KeyLimePieGirl Saturnii is one of the alters, not the main. Most violent alters don't care the well being of their host. And the protector being not powerful enough to reign them is another problem, in my opinion. And this result in the host went for SH. I don't have enough info from this. But yes, if you can. Go for psychological attendants, or even SH hotline. They got to have link to the right person to give better help.