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Can't stay long

Rails1996 February 2nd, 2023

It started in my early 20s, the trauma, pain and responsibility put on such a young person and I was determined to carry it silently. Slowly I went off course until I no longer recognized myself, but had I even had the chance to develop myself? I was so alone, and over and over again came the blows of betrayl and heartache until I stopped wanting to be in my body. I feel numb, little by little I try to heal after so many many years of staying detached and everytime being inside myself has me bawling and shaking uncontrollably. Until I feel myself shut off again, I can't stop it. It'd just too much pain. No one can understand me, and so many judge. No one truly loves anyone. It's all about them. And I am always failing. I'm always failing.

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fruityPond7887 February 6th, 2023

@Rails1996 Hi, how are you doing? I want to thank you for sharing your thoughts with us. This was very raw and I can understand how you must be struggling. I want you to know that our Listeners are here whenever you would like to chat with them for extra support. You can join the general request queue or you can browse for a Listener here: https://www.7cups.com/BrowseListeners/ I hope this helps! We are always here for you!