Hello @PretzelDeer, nice to meet you.💛
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Goodness, this made me cry, I probably won't be as well eloquent maybe, but I couldn't resist replying what comes to mind after reading it.
For one, I admire people who have a knack for creative expression, to have a way to express how we feel, saying what's in our mind without "actually" saying it straight out (maybe that's way more difficult for many of us mhm?), this wasn't easy either, I just know hehe, which makes me super proud of you for even just trying. <3 This is beautifully expressed, I see how there's hints of truth, your thoughts and feelings, a deep sense of hurt but what else? Hope, there's lots of hope here and I am awe-d to sense it. ❤
Nightmares are absolutely awful, taking one back to places they would like to escape, memories they'd like to forget, it's something very deep rooted in the mind though it seems, the scars, that keep inflicting pain upon us and don't let us forget things we would really want to. My heart really goes out to you, for whatever wrong that happened that has caused you trauma, making it difficult for you to be more *you* and setting your mind free. :/
Hints of hope. ✨
Yes you deserve to be seen, to be heard, to be able to feel connected with *you*, to heal, and to set your mind free someday. It might be a long way ahead, but I see you've already started taking many steps, so we dont know when we'll reach there, but we will, the climbing has an end and I so hope it's a beautiful and peaceful one for you. While on many days it may seem like merely dragging forward, it still counts, okie? Every little step, every little drag, every breath you take moving forward~ they all count.
I'm so proud of you for being here, battling it through and from where I see it, you're a warrior indeed, growing stronger every passing moment.
Sending lots of love, peace and strength your way. I hope someday is a whole lot better for you, and your mind. 💛 Keep walking forward at your pace, while remembering it's okay to take time to catch a breather and rest, *you* do deserve some rest also.
