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Ivery been with the same guy for years, he's abusive physically and mentally and only uses me when he needs something. The reason is I've never felt I deserved better. When we fought my friends would tell me I'll meet someone cause I'm nice, like that's all it takes, but I haven't and ultimately its better to be with anyone than face the crippling reality that no one wants to be with me.
Edited by Rain45 Moved to Domestic Abuse Community due to Forum Restructuring
Would you rather be abused than be alone? If this guy isn't treating you like a princess then you need to break up. Don't let him hurt you like that. You'll find the right person when you're ready and when they're ready. They'll see the amazing qualities inside of you
I've been in that place and its scary. You need to get out of that relationship now. You'll find someone who will treat you right. It may not be right away, it may take time, but you mentioned you have some friends that I'm sure will help you. Just get out of that while you're still alive, theres a better future for you away from abuse and you just need to reach for it and go.