TW: sexual abuse from family at a very early age/details
Hello... My name is Tess, and I'm hoping to get some support. I was very young when it began... much of it I have blocked out, but I am almost 100% certain I was molested. What I do remember were the emotional and non-physical abuses... I remember the comments on my body... the exposure to pornography... The leering gazes at my body.... the sexual shaming and names against me (ie. Slut, whore, prostitute, etc.), the barging into my room without warning... and on and on. My last experience was from my mother back in March... She was looking down my shirt when I wasn't looking in her direction- but then I caught her. I'm 29, and it made me spiral. Needless to say... I'm no longer in contact with her and haven't been since then. I just couldn't believe she'd still continue after all this time. I just need support. I just started seeing a new therapist... so...I hope she helps. Thanks for reading.
@SweetTess91
Hey Tess,
Sharing about all this here must've been mighty difficult..
I'm sorry to hear you had your innocence snatched away from you at such a young age. No one deserves to go through any of that. It makes sense for you to not be able to remember much about the physical abuse inflicted on you. Often, in cases of severe trauma, our brain blocks out certain memories to not have to go through the immense pain of remembering them. Even the other memories you are able to recall must hurt so bad..
I can imagine how that incident with your mother might have triggered you and brought up a lot of pain. Just know that I'm so proud of you for cutting off contact with her for your own good. Regardless of whether they're abusive, cutting off contact with family is hard..
We're all here for you, right by your side on your journey towards healing. I too hope that the new therapist is able to help! Feel free to put out a general request or message a listener from the browse listeners page if you'd like to speak more about this.
And most importantly, take care of yourself, always❤️
~Sierra
@SweetTess91
Oh my goodness, Tess, I felt like I was reading my own story. I can relate.
Hope your therapy is going well. It is not easy opening up and working on this stuff, but you deserve to be helped and to heal.
Sorry for what Happened to you we are in a world full of crime and abuse but don't feel sad a 1 hour mistake or abuse can't stop the clock from clicking, you still have many more hours to continue with what you want to be, to amend in porn and value yourself though I know is not easy but I want you to know there are so many people who still value and will always be there when you need someone to talk to as a Friend am one of those.
A stumbling stone can still be the chief cornerstone....
