Trauma Support Community Checkin Monday-Tuesday, November 16-17 2020
Hey you wonderful people! We're all set up here for another great campfire. I hope the start of this new week finds you all doing ok. It's ok to not be ok too! This is a place to come as you are :)
So come - grab a seat and tell me what is on your beautiful minds!
*J*
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@mytwistedsoul
Hi! What's on my mind... school lol. That's what's on my mind. Just doing school with Sydney screaming bro in the back of my mind. Yes, my mind is crazy it's interesting
@The0Vetoed0System Hey! It's nice to see you here today :)
School - oh man - you do have alot on your mind :) Does it help if you remind them to use their quiet voices? Allthough sometimes that tends to make them raise the volume rather then lower it - just to irritate. It does make it hard to concentrate though doesn't it?
Thank you for coming in today - Take care of yourself :)
@mytwistedsoul
Hi... This past week has been really rough for me... it's been a little over two months since my trauma now, and it seems like my progress has just backtracked. I don't think there was a single day last week where I didn't breakdown, half the time for no reason, when I normally don't have to break down that often, though it was nice to have my fiance there to support me and reassure me. It also kinda sucks cause I haven't been able to sleep well at all recently, so that just kind of exasperates everything. If it was just that stuff, I wouldn't necessarily feel that bad, but last night I found out my fiance had been potentially exposed to someone who tested positive for covid, which means he has to go home early since it's already close to finals. We aren't super worried about him getting it, because his immune system is really really good and we know his exposure time would've been minimal and he would've had his mask on, but it's still a worrying possibility. Plus once we finish finals we don't come back to campus until January, so having to say goodbye early and having the last week and a half taken away from us really really sucks, cause he's my main source of emotional support, and we're not sure if he'll even be able to visit me for Christmas or not, so it's just hard to think about, and the fact that we couldn't hug or anything when saying goodbye really hurt... On the bright side, I just got some eye masks so maybe I'll be able to sleep a little easier :/ barely a silver lining but at least it's something
Also my friend just had her baby the other day so that's a happy note too. Forgot to add that part :)
@HumanPersonThingy Hey it's nice to see you today :)
It does sound like a very rough week :( It's hard when things seems to back track and the break downs seem to happen for no reason. Sometimes I think it's just the way we process things. We have days when things seem good and nothing seems to bother us and we think - no problem - I got this! Then - the next day it seems everything bothers us all at once. Allmost as if we're processing things in bite sized blocks with what our brains can handle. It does seem to affect sleep though doesn't it? And it makes things so much harder when we're tired - I think that adds to the emotions too
I hope your fiance is ok - that would be scary and didn't help your stress at all I'm sure and then with the possibility of not being able to see him over the holidays - especially with having your time cut short - that would make things much harder for you. I hope things calm down for you and that the restrictions lift so that you can visit each other
I hope the eye masks help you get some better sleep. Have you ever tried some soft music in the back ground or some of the nature sounds they have on youtube? There are some on there that last for 8 hours or more. I could look the links up if you'd like :)
Congratulations to your friend! :) That is a very happy note!
I hope you're able to get some sleep and that it helps to calm everything else down for you - Try to be patient with yourself - I know it can be hard but you're doing really great by talking things out here
Thank you for joining me here today :) I hope you take good care of yourself
@mytwistedsoul
Hi! I'm doing ok today. The last few weeks have kept me on edge. I keep feeling scared and nothing really makes sense. There was alot of dissociating and spacing out because I was getting exposed to a trigger again and again when working. But today feels calmer and I'm just trying to get back on track
I hope you're well too
@pencilmarks Hey it's really nice to see you here today :)
I'm glad you're doing ok today. It's really hard to have that scared and on edge feeling. Sometimes when that happens with me it helps to voice that I am safe - to just say it out loud can help sometimes. Kind of like a mantra. It would be really hard to keep being triggered at work :( Is there anything that can be done to avoid it alittle? Do you have something you could keep with you that would help you feel safer? Maybe alittle memento or even a smaller stuffed animal that you could tuck in your pocket or even your desk? Sometimes little things like that can help :) Sometimes taking a moment to acknowledge that it's a trigger and then grounding yourself can help too - of course allways do what's best for you though
Thank you for joining me here today :) Take good care of yourself
@mytwistedsoul
I like that mantra. It's something I use too. I've stuffed animals, they're comforting. I've also wrapped myself in a blanket. It helps me feel less scared
Thank you <3
It's a new blanket that I got last month to help me feel grounded
@mytwistedsoul
Jus thinking alot this weekend.
@Fireskye13 Hey Skye - its nice to seen you here today :)
You were in my thoughts this weekend. I imagine you had alot on your mind this weekend. I hope you were gentle with yourself and your thoughts. There are many people who care for you here. We're here for you if you need us ok?
Thank you for joining me today :) Please take extra good care of yourself
I am really anxious about getting on disabilty and making phone calls. I have no income and i'm stressing about that. I hate my body and what it has become. I wish I could work and not stress about all this but it's keeping me up at night. I'm so angry at what my life has become. I need to get in shape before a wedding that is happening this summer and I'm helping out with that but I am stressing because I want it to be perfect.
I just want to cry and I can let a few tears go but it's never enough. I just want to give up and lay down and ya know pass on. I want to give up but it's not in mr to. I always have to keep fighting and pushing. I want a break and I want this all to end.
Sorry about the long depressive rant. I just needed to get it out
@Goldcherry2113 Hey it's nice to see you here :)
Please don't be sorry - I'm glad you felt comfortable to rant here. Come as you are ok? Good or bad that's what we're here for
You're under a great deal of stress right now - I can understand why you're having a hard time sleeping :( I get anxious about phone calls too - it seems like they never get any easier to make does it? I hope things work out with getting on disability - it would be incredibly scary and frustrating to not be able to work and to not have any income
Its ok to get angry - I know it sometimes feels wrong but it's actually a healthy emotion to have when it comes to the injustice of how things are
Maybe there are small things you could do to help you get into the shape you'd like to be. I think it would be pretty stressful to help plan a wedding - I think it's amazing that you are and I'm sure that it will be perfect because of the love that going into it
It can be so hard to let the tears come sometimes - especially when you want them to. They never seem to mind showing up when you don't want them though do they? I'm glad you don't have it in you to give up - it takes an amazing amount of strength to get up and fight the same battle every day. You are a warrior
I send you peaceful thoughts tonight - that you can get some much deserved rest
Thank you for joining me here today - please be gentle with yourself and your thoughts
@Goldcherry2113
Hiya gold, ima sry to hear things are tough rn, it sounds like you have alot going on, hopefully destress a bit.
Ik that's easier said than done. I can understand wanting everything to be perfect, but things will work out, ima not sure there is such a thing as perfect. Ima sure you'll do ur best and it will be great! Don't be 2 hard on urself.
No worries on the rant, that's what were here for, rant away anytime!
Hang tough stay pawsome ur friend 🔥
Unfortunately, the last couple of days have been bad here. My MIL is in ICU on a ventilator. She has double pneumonia. The only ray of hope in this is she tested negative for Covid twice. She has been in there two days with no change. We are not being allowed to see her due to Covid and the fact that she is too sick. She is 74, and may not get through this.
@Breezy2013
Oh my gosh ima sry to hear that I hope things get better, if you want to talk leave me a message or look for me in the rooms.
Hang tough stay pawsome ur friend 🔥
@Breezy2013 Hey it's nice to see you here :)
I'm so sorry to hear about you MIL :( While I'm glad to hear that she doesn't have covid - I'm so sorry to hear that she has double pneumonia. It would be so hard to not be able to see her right now - I mean I understand the reasoning behind it but it certainly doesnt make it easier for their loved ones or even the patients themselves. I hope and send you good vibes that she'll get better soon. Just a thought but maybe you could send her a recording of your voices - as if you were reading her a letter from you both. Something to let her know that she is missed and very loved - maybe it would give her alittle boost to help her fight off the pneumonia
Please keep us posted on how she's doing
Thank you so much for joining me today - please take good care of yourself
@mytwistedsoul
Hi. Hope you are doing well. I tested positive for the virus last Thur. I've been isolating from family members I live with. It's been hard looking at the same four walls. My daughter is handling it well and so far doesn't show any symptoms. If I go outside I have to wear a mask which makes it harder to breathe. I have more time to think which isn't a good thing. I also had to cancel my appt. with my therapist. Anyway sorry to be so negative.
@RedHawk6547 Hey its nice to see you here :)
That must have been scary to find out you tested positive :( I'm glad to hear that your daughter isn't showing any symptoms and is handling it well. It would be really hard to stare at the same walls and with all that time to think - our thoughts have a way of getting us into trouble sometimes don't they?
Those masks - they do make it harder to breath and they seem to make the anxiety worse. I'm really sorry you had to cancel your appointment with your therapist - it really makes it alot harder when they're our safe person to talk to and we're not allowed to see them. Would you and your therapist be open to doing a phone session? Maybe even something like face time? I know its not the same thing - but it might be something that would help until you can see them in person again
I hope you know that anytime you need to talk - about anything - even if its to pass the time - we're here for you ok? All you have to do is tag me or one of the others :)
Thank you for joining me here today - please be gentle with yourself and your thoughts
@mytwistedsoul
Lovely campfire you got there. Been pretty busy, but trying my best to maintain work-life balance. I'm good with time management but I have to learn to not spend too much time working because people don't know the totality of my life, my schedule, my aspirations, etc.
@SynSavory Hey it's nice to see you :)
Keeping busy is usually a good thing but it is hard to find that balance isnt it? It seems like there is allways something that needs to be done when it comes to work doesn't it? I know I sometimes feel alittle guilty when I spend time doing fun things or even just taking the time to relax - especially when I know there is something I could be working on. I'm glad you're trying to find that balance
Thank you for joining me - I hope you take good care of yourself
@mytwistedsoul, hello there! Good to see you again. 
The things in my mind right now are school and a lack of motivation to do my schedule. Oh yeah. Deep breathing is useful in sleeping. Haha
Take care!
@LovelyOrangeJuice Hey it's nice to see you :)
It is hard to find the motivation some days to stick to a schedule. Especially right now - with everything going on with this virus and everything seeming like it's all mixed it. I can understand why you might struggle - I think many of us are - trying to find some form of normal in this mess
Sleeping is good for you :) It helps healing and being rested helps with feeling alittle more together some days doesn't it? I know lack of sleep can sure make things feel worse sometimes
Thank you for joining me here - I hope you take good care of yourself
Hi everyone. I am okay this morning. My MIL is starting to wake up and they tried weaning her off of the Ventilator yesterday, but she needs a little more time before she can breathe on her own. They are pumping her full of Intravenous antibiotics and antivirals. The nurse said it is normal and common for it to take a few tries before they can get sommeone off a Ventilator and they will give it a try again, today. I got my car back (We hit a Deer) from the Body shop today, so we might take a drive to try to see her later today or tomorrow if we can get some loose ends tied up here first.
@Breezy2013 Hey! This is great news! I'm so glad to hear that she's waking up - I can understand why it would take a few times to wean her off the ventilator. I hope she continues to make a full recovery and that you're able to visit her soon :)
Congratulations on getting your car back too! That has to be a great feeling too
Thank you very much for giving us an update on you MIL - we'll keep sending those good vibes
Drive safe and take good care of yourself
