Oh dear
Hello. I'm new here. Things have been getting more messed up than been in years I'd think these past days.
I have had derealization 24/7 since I was 15. I'm a number 43 now. So many years living in a dream. Stress makes everything worse.
I'm seemingly unable to take care of myself. I'm not eating, sleep is very sad state, embarrassing but not even showering. I wonder why so much..and I m wondering..do I dispize myself that much or am I that detached that it's like I don't exist to myself in this world. So much to say. Didn't happen overnight. So hurt and angry inside. So completely alone in it all. Very difficult to speak about myself so yaaa..trying.
Best to you all.
Hello, @Rhea3. Welcome to 7 Cups. I'm sorry you're experiencing so many difficulties. I hope you are able to connect with lots of supportive and encouraging people here on this site. We are here for you. Connecting with others is a great first step.
I've been abused my entire life. Even my mom..adoptive mom but the only one I ever knew..until finding my bio mom.
The screaming, hitting the deliberate beating down of the human spirit. That all got topped off by her staying with a man that was raping me and totally mind screwing me as well..repeadedly whenever and wherever he wanted to.
How can a person cry like they care so much and then sit on a couch snuggling up with the pedo while smiling at me and ask if I want to go to a movie with you guys? Evil.
No wonder I avoid talking.
The damn story is too disturbing but it's my life. It's real and that's messed up.
