therapy
is there any therapists who are willing to talk to me and be my ongoing therapist?
@igitsally therapy at 7 Cups is a paid option. Here are two links to help you understand how it works.
https://www.7cups.com/forum/therapy/TheLatestonTherapySubcom_2349/WhatHappensDuring7CupsOnlineTherapy_296347/
https://www.7cups.com/online-therapy/
For free options
There are free self help guides https://www.7cups.com/supportGuides/selfHelpGuides.php
You can browse for a listener. https://www.7cups.com/BrowseListeners/ .
You may also find these helpful https://www.7cups.com/connect/groupChatrooms.php
Some people find that mindfulness helps them cope. The video Resource Library https://www.7cups.com/forum/MindfulnessSupportCommunity_106/ResourceLibrary_1062/2017MindfulnessVideos_72071/
Discussion for 50+ 35+ and mindfulness are here
https://www.7cups.com/forum/50OverCommunity_193/TeamToolsandTeamUpdates_1705/50plusDiscussionsScheduleandTopics_207920/