Ptsd
My mom and dad fight a lot . Well mostly my dad fights with everyone and my mom is really tired to even react and that pisses my dad of . One night he screamed at her so intense i woke up . It was 2 am . I could recognize him . My mom was crying . I was alone in the house . No neighbors, no siblings, no dogs. He continued until 4 am . I remember shaking and crying not knowing ehat to do . I almost called the police. My mom told him that to make him realise how insane he acted . He said " well im glad she didnt because iwould be in jail rn" i just stood there . In shook. I hate him . They are both wo toxic together. He doesn't get how much trauma he has caused to me ? And he has the nerve to say "thank god she didnt "? I get flashbacks of that night. Thinking j shouldve called the police. I dont trust men now . And i dont even want to think about serious commitment. Thanks, mom and dad.
@understandingOcean8592 I am so sorry you have had such a challenging childhood it must be difficult to have memories like that. I think parents often are faced with difficult relationships where they are struggling to hang on. I am not condoning their actions, but they sometimes suffer from mental illness themselves or from their partner.
When I feel discouraged about my parents not understanding me, I feel some gratitude for them taking care of me when I was a helpless baby and child. They helped me survive to adulthood. Could they have done better? Yes for sure, but many people in other countries never survive childhood.
I am not telling you this to dissuade you from trying to overcome your feelings about the situation, but only to suggest what works for me to diminish my discontent and increase my satisfaction.
Hope you find the support you are looking for.
My parents fight a lot too.😞 It's never gotten to this extent of debating whether or not to call the authorities, but definitely to the point where I was taking off, and even quietly speaking to somebody to try and help me get some kind of support for housing (despite literally being broke and a mess mentally).
I know how hard this sort of stuff can be growing up, and I just hope you know that many of us here can relate. I can find some comfort knowing that I'm not alone, and trying to heal with other people online has made things even a tiny bit easier.
We all deserve to be happy.🌸
