Early trauma, childhood abuse of several kinds
TRIGGER WARNING...I preface my post with the warning for those who don't want to read what I'm about to write.
I was physically and SA from infancy until I was a toddler. I don't have memories of the SA but I remember the physical because it lasted longer. I won't go into much detail other than to say I still have scars both physically and emotionally. I've had the hardest time dealing with negative thinking, anger, fear, anxiety, night terrors, and much more. I'm in my 40s now and abuser is dead. He died 9 years ago but I still find myself afraid of men. I used to not be but recently I think I've been remembering more and it triggered a sudden aversion to being touched or having my personal space invaded. I work at a really large warehouse where there are a lot of men and some mornings when I wake up to get ready for work I almost break down in a panic attack at the thought of going. I guess I'm here to find a support group of similar people I can talk to because therapy is too expensive.
@spicedchailatte2022
You had to go through something no human being, no being at all should have to go through. In that early age you were most vulnerable and dependent on adults to protect you, not to harm you. ❤️ It takes a lot of strength to cope with what happened, hugs. I'm very glad that you reached out to 7cups and hope coming here will help you to heal. Sometimes, though, the best help is to talk to a someone who can give professional help with the traumatic events. I know that you mentioned about therapy being expensive and usually it is. Did you know, however, that 7cups offer a package at a special rate? You can find more information here https://www.7cups.com/online-therapy/?ob=1
For free options: You can browse for a listener. https://www.7cups.com/BrowseListeners/ .
There are free self-help guides https://www.7cups.com/supportGuides/selfHelpGuides.php
Sharing Circle is listed as one of the Group Support rooms https://www.7cups.com/connect/groupChatrooms.php
@spicedchailatte2022 I am sorry you are a survivor of abuse. No one should have to go through that.
It can be difficult but there is a way to be present every day and not focus on the rough memories. When I hear a bird singing and really hear it, or feel the breeze on my face, I catch a glimpse of what that can be like. These videos on loving kindness have helped me heal the scars of the past. https://www.7cups.com/forum/7CupsOnlineTherapy_157/Resources_2155/LovingKindnessCanHealOurHeartsandMinds_274438/
Hope you get the support you are looking for.
