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enzo360 Sunday

I am not ok I wake up in mental pain most often in tears of my reality. I'm stuck in a deep hole I've put myself in via self hatred and self sabotage from my own free will. Sleep is my only escape from myself as my dreams take me away from this existence. I am not ok. I am afraid of myself and it's hard to suppress my thoughts and feelings minute by minute and try to survive existence. I don't belong here I don't deserve this life.

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@enzo360

So sorry to see you suffering enzo360. This must be really painful for you, and I can only imagine what you are going through. It can be very difficult to think that things can get better when you feel like you're not belonging and deserve to be here, but you do, and you deserve to live a good life as anyone else.  Please let us help you and reach out for support.

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HealingAhead Tuesday

I'm really sorry about the mental pain you are experiencing enzo360. Sometimes mental pain hurts more than physical pain. I also struggle with low self-esteem and self sabotage. However, I've made it a goal to think about, if only one thing, I can be grateful for everyday. I also like to think about my good qualities. I'm not perfect, no one is. I continually have to remind myself of this. I have to stop comparing myself to others and look at the wonderful things growing in my garden. I believe you sincerely belong on this earth and you are worthy of life. I don't know you personally, but reading your post reminded me that I'm not alone in this world. You are not alone either. More people care about you than you know. I'm not sure what your beliefs are, but I will pray that your mental pain will eventually stop and you will see how valuable you are. If you ever need to talk or vent you can always message me. Please don't give up.

amiablePeace77 2 days ago

@enzo360

Hi, I wanted to check in with you. How are you feeling today?