sobriety is pain
for one reason or another I'm in absolute agony simply existing for pretty much all of the time I'm not drunk or high. probably in part because of the drugs and alcohol in the first place. how do I get pleasure from absolutely anything other than mind altering substances? nothing is fun and I'm constantly hating myself for existing.
@MooRooster
You were a teen in 2018 when you started and you are still a teen...at what age did you begin using substances?
@WorldsInMySoul started drinking when I was 9 lol
@MooRooster
I am deeply sad for that, in my culture it was custom to give alcohol to children, people did not think...I am sorry you had to start so early...there is help out there if you want yet there is no definite cure from both substance abuses because there is no medical financial interest to realy reasearch permanent cures...financially it pays to have addicts and addict pacients who consume substances from which the state perceives taxes...
I wish you well...
@WorldsInMySoul thanks mate
@MooRooster
We try to stick together...because we know...
I started when I was 14 in 2013. I met a 19 year old guy and we started dating and he introduced me to drugs. I can go clean for a year or two but go back to it and when I do I go hard. I smoked weed straight every day from 14-19 until I fell pregnant.
Now I can't smoke or I have a panic attack. Instead now I do coke, Xanax, oxy or tabs. I never get very high because I'm the sole care giving for my son but I do get a little high.
