i cant stop taking painkillers
lately, (in the last year or so) every time things get hard ive turned to over-the-counter painkillers. i usually used them for headaches (which i get often) but once i realized they could also have a mind-numbing effect ive started using them for things outside of physical pain, sometimes taking more than the recommended dosage.
as a person with adhd, i know i am very prone to addiction and im scared i'm headed in that direction. im scared if i ever get access to anything stronger, i wont be able to say no.
i dont exactly have someone close to me i can really talk to about any of this and if i tried to call a help line or anything like that i think id end up causing more problems than id be solving. so thats why i came here
i really just want to stop myself now before it leads to something way worse and maybe find a better way to cope when i start to feel awful