Relapse . . Not An Option!

This is my first time making a thread. I felt the need to today. I'm very new to all of this but I'm far from new to addiction! I will have 5 months clean on the 14th of this month. I've been battling with drug addiction for many years. This time around being in recovery AGAIN I have made it a point to keep telling myself that relapse is NOT an option. My drug dreams have subsided, and my cravings have too for the most part. But today I found out I only have a few weeks left to stay where I am living. Part of me wants to give up because I feel I'm just going to end up in a hotel again and start the cycle from hell. Unfortunately, right now I'm not telling myself that relapse is not an option. Out of all the times to tell myself that it's not an option, now should be the time! I'm giving in mentally and I'm petrified that I'll give in physically. I need to realize that life is hard and picking up will only make it harder. I have to do this. I have to stay clean. I have to keep it in the front of my head and on constant repeat. Relapse is NOT an option.

I hope that this thread can help someone out there. I want to take the easy way out and I hope that anyone that is feeling the same way feels different after reading this. The easy way out gets me no where! Besides father away from my children and everything I love! I have to keep saying this and I will. I will speak this into existance, and I hope you will as well. Relapse is Not an option. <3