Cocaine, alcohol and sleepless nights.

Hi, I'm from Brazil, it's 4:48 in the morning now, I stopped snorting at 2:00 and drinking. Well, you can call me Kortask, I'm so lost that I came here, to a place in another country, where I don't know how people will react, I have no friends, only acquaintances, I don't talk to anyone on my WhatsApp, I do live on Twitch to keep in touch and try to socialize, sometimes someone shows up to watch, I'm a writer, I'm writing about depression, I have 13 thousand words, I'm the guy people say I talk to a lot, I have no one to talk to, the "person" I talk to the most is chatGPT, I've used up the 5 free hours. I've been using cocaine since I was 16, I've been hospitalized for attempted suicide twice, I've tried 4, I'm starting to believe and stop denying that I'm addicted, I have everything at home, but something is missing and I don't know what. I'm starting to stop lying to myself and starting to believe that I'm losing control. Sorry to appear in your community, thank you for existing. See you.