Ahhhhhh

Sorry I don’t know where to put this thread and have been struggling to post. I feel like fool….more than ever….which is saying something.
I haven’t seen my ex nor used meth in three years, the two became one and turned my world upside down. I still haven’t healed and the things that happened I replay questioning blame and holding shame.
The experiences have challenged my…everything. I don’t even crave ‘normal’ sex now. Can’t get self back out there regardless as don’t feel good enough.
Started emailing my ex again and my whole world stopped…again…it was like 3 years had not past and I was hook line and sinker. Chasing and wanting everything he won’t give. He possibly goes back to gaol today….either way I can’t face myself or the world. I don’t want to feel this way anymore

@tornwillow I said to myself, "Maybe this time it will be different."