New here.

@GingerSunshyne

May I ask your reason for drinking?
Is it habit or to make physical emotional pain etc.?
It is important to deal with the core issue behind an addiction (if you don't mind me calling it that).

Thank you for at least waiting until your children are in bed before drinking. My cousin had to watch her mother day in day out drink up until the age of 8 when she passed away and to this day she still remembers how she behaved and I can't imagine what that must be like for her.

@HakunaMatata2k

i drink to deal with physical pain and stress.

@GingerSunshyne

Welcome :D

@HakunaMatata2k

Modersation can be challenging. I think its very brave that you have taken the steps to post here and share about your situation. Have you tried other methods to manage stress, for example: meditation, working out/ going for a walk, listening to music, doing something creative, knitting, writing, reading, calling a friend on the phone....etc. Maybe next time you feel the stress coming in, you can try to manage the pain and stress in a different way.

Keep your head up, you are stronger than you realize :)

Thanks Strawberry