I think I’ll become addicted if I don’t stop

Once a week I have to drink. I can’t help it. I feel like my mom and my family environment is a big part of it. They’re not abusive, they just blame me for everything that happens ever. They don’t believe in me at all. I think alcohol is so much fun, I’m not addicted yet I think because I don’t have a dependence of any kind, but everytime I’m más I just want to drink the feelings away.