Failure in competitive exam even after a drop year
Since childhood I always knew that I'm not a very talented and naturally intelligent student.So i had to work extremely hard to get something which others would get easily.Evverything was going right but suddenly after.class 12th boards i didn't get the percentage that i thought I would,i worked super hard,sacrificed so many things but didn't get the college i wanted.
Nevertheless I joined a different college and worked harder this time so that i can pursue my higher studies from the best college in my country.For three years worked extremely hard again sacrificed things refrained from doing fun stuff because I felt that i didn't deserve that since I haven't achieved anything.Couldnt get a rank good enough for my higher studies in the best college.
Was determined that I'd take a drop year and prepare again.Even though my results were good in college and i was getting good colleges this time i thought of taking a risk and make good use of this drop year to get into the best college.Yet again i worked hard,this time not leaving anything,gave my everything blood sweat tears as they say,was happy about being super productive,uninstalled and stayed away from any social media didn't meet friends often just studied and i was happy.
I'd give mock tests and score.pretty well in them and finally got a little confidence that maybe this time something good will finally happen.But it didn't.The paper was extremely tough and i made such silly mistakes which i have never made before,not like i was overconfident or extremely tensed i just don't know what happened.I was in absolute shock when I saw my response sheet and i how poorly i had performed.performed.I feel like all my efforts all the sacrifices everything that I've done in these 6 months and also before that have gone to waste.
I still feel so.And the worst part is i punish myself for it and tell myself that i shouldn't be happy.Evwr since i have stopped smiling.its been four years since I've been genuinely happy or satisfied with myself.I don't know what to do.I don't know what happened and what went wrong.I have always put real efforts when it comes to education and i still haven't got the results of my hardwork.I feel like giving up because if even after trying so hard i keep failing then is there really any hope at all?
@Randomperson1997
Dear friend I deeply empathize with you. Just today I also got feedback from an organisation where I applied for a job that said I didn't manage to pass their intelligence test.
Please don't see these hardships as a reflection of what you can actually do and accomplish. I am rooting for you that you will get to the place you desire to be in life - but right now, I really think that you would most benefit for a break. Treat yourself, because you deserved it. You deserve it and give your body and mind the rest it needs. Reconnect with the people you love and when you feel fit, you will come back to your studies.
I also think that it might not be a bad idea to go for a plan B. That is, applying for a uni which maybe isn't as high ranking, but still has quality. I don't know you personally, but from what you wrote, my first guess is that you hold yourself to some extremely high standards. By lessening your standards I don't think that you would be settling for something bad or unpractical, but it is always yours to chose.
I am sending you lots of support and please, don't beat yourself up about it. Whatsmore, you should be proud of yourself for being the hard-working person you are ❤️
Hey,thank you for the most caring message I've literally ever got in my entire life.Im so sorry I couldn't reply earlier,i had to give other exams and wasn't quite in the headspace to reply anything.But thank you so much.My results weren't as bad as i thought they would,it's true that i won't get my dream college but I guess settling for something a little less ain't that bad as of now.will definitely work harder for the years to come.Thank you again.God bless!
@Randomperson1997
I know how tough it is to put allot of work into an exam and not get the score you wanted, I know this is hard to do but don't let the mark drag you down, this peice of paper doesn't define you, there is so much more to you than your grades, remember this mark doesn't define you, your personality does!
Failing is the another step to succeed..That means you tried ..been through the same but never lose the hopes just keep trying and pushing yourself until you make it..
Remember - Consistency in hardwork is the key !
All the best!
Same!! I am in similar situations....let's just keep our hopes high with strength tighten🌟🌟
