hi ig. tw?

im new to this community so idrk what to say, tw?

i started to sh in around summer (july/august idk). at that time, i was maybe in the worst place ive ever been in and was crying silently every night because i didn't want anyone to know what i was going through. a couple of my friends had recently told me about her problems and how she had been in a really bad place and i didn't want to add my problems onto theirs. when i began to sh, it felt like an escape. like time had stopped. i stopped doing it in around september because i knew that sh wasn't helping me. it did feel like an escape. but not for long. i decided that i was gonna try to get better because i didn't want to feel like that forever. i relapsed in october only once and now ive told my friends some of the things im going through (big achievement for me!) and i haven't sh since. im still struggling and still have the occassional thought of picking up a razor but now i'm able to control those urges. i'm doing better than i was a few months ago:)

i don't know if i did this right but to anyone struggling it will get better!!