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Hi. I'm still new here though I've been going on chat.. sharing circle for awhile. I'm 43 and have been diagnosed with complex PTSD..although also with DID In the past. I don't share things has anymore I'm fine with complex ptsd diagnosis tho it's been interesting how I've been treated.
I've gone a long time without actually acting on self harm behavior. It's been an ongoing battle since like age 14.
Now. I'm feeling like I'm losing control and my mind again. Pretty intensely. Having these urges and headaches and confusion. Not to mention the constant talking in my head.
I don't know if this is where I should be even posting this..so I apologize in advance.
I've endured abuse all my life. I'm very tired. I fight like crazy. I'm usually very strong. But this time it's getting me. Still trying. Still here. Still breathing.
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@Rhea3
Hey Rhea,
I'm sorry for the 2 day later reply. I'm glad 7 cups is helping and your feeling supported on here. I want you to know how strong for everything you have endured and are still here. I'm truly sorry for everything you've been through even though I don't know what. I'm glad you've been a long time without self harming. I understand it being an on going battle since age 14. It must haven't been easy for you to fight this but you did you still are. I understand you're feeling like you're spiraling into the same cycle again. The one it took so long to get out of. I understand having intense urges and I'm sorry you're having to deal with that all over again. I understand the talking in your head just adds on to all your worries and confusion. Don't apologize. This is okay where you posted this. I'm sorry to hear that you've had such a traumatic life. I'm glad you're still here and fighting with all your strength and might after everything you've been through it's really admirable. I really hope you feel better. I know it's difficult but things get better. I wish the best for you. Please take care of yourself and your mental health. I know how much of a struggle it is for you. Please know you're not alone during this time and 7 cups is here in case you need. I hope this message finds you safe and healthy.
