SELF HARM

TRIGGER WARNING (self-harm)

The weight of my struggles becomes unbearable, as I yearn for someone to reach out and offer a lifeline. I wonder if it is my fault, if I am somehow unworthy of support and compassion. The stigma surrounding mental health issues looms over me, casting a shadow of shame and guilt. It feels as though society has turned its back on me, leaving me to navigate this treacherous path alone. In my darkest moments, I contemplate the possibility of a different outcome. What if someone were to notice the signs, to see through the facade I wear each day? Would they understand the depths of my pain, the battles I fight within myself? Or would they simply dismiss it as attention-seeking or weakness? The isolation becomes suffocating, as I yearn for connection and understanding. I long for someone to listen without judgment, to offer a shoulder to lean on when I can no longer bear the weight of my own despair. But as the days turn into weeks, and the weeks into months, it becomes clear that the support I so desperately crave is nowhere to be found. In this cycle of self-destruction, I am left to question my own worth. Am I not deserving of love and compassion? Is my pain not valid enough to warrant assistance? The doubts and self-blame only serve to deepen the wounds, pushing me further into the abyss. Yet, amidst the darkness, a flicker of hope remains. It is a small voice within me that whispers, reminding me that I am not alone. It tells me that there are others out there who have walked this path, who have emerged from the depths of despair. It is this glimmer of hope that keeps me going, that fuels my determination to find a way out of this cycle. I may be trapped in this seemingly endless struggle, but I refuse to let it define me. I will continue to fight, to seek solace and support, even if it means reaching out to strangers or seeking professional help. I will not let the indifference of others extinguish the flame of hope within me. For in the depths of my pain, I am reminded that I am not alone. There are others who understand, who have faced their own demons and emerged stronger. And with their stories as my guide, I will continue to push forward, knowing that one day, I will find the solace and support I so desperately seek.