Here I go, again

It had been 15 years since I had last self-harmed. Cutting. 15 years gone in a second. I thought I was so much smarter and wiser now. So what it the memories came back? I had started therapy, I knew logically so many healthy copping skills. I was wrong. The memories came, the instincts came. It had been 15 years. It's 0 days now.