hi, thanks for sharing. I will also share my story that might help you and I hope you will read it to the end.
I don't know if I have a mental problem also I have never checked and treated it in a hospital.
I've been banging my head against the wall many times over the last few years. I didn't feel pain at that time. even I feel like wanting more and more. until someone came to stop me.
after that I experienced deep stress. where I hurt myself a lot and I'm not sure how I did it but I had asthma for a short time while my family has no history of asthma. and i had insomnia also anemic after that.
At that time I never thought about what people would think about me and what people say about me. what I think is me and my problems.
one day I'm decided, I want to be alone. I distanced myself from people for a while and I really did it. can be said like meditating alone.
and I found that what caused me more trouble was the surrounding atmosphere and people around me who give pressure. then I stay away from people who give me stress for a while. and I find books are also one of my problems. when I write my heart out, I feel more depressed and sad about my own feelings that I should just forget about. then I distance myself from the diary.
in fact, now I'm discovered without taking any mental supplements even though I tried to suicide many times before. but i realize aware of reality. and when I remember my behavior before, I think it might be a lesson for myself and a new lesson for people who want to be self-aware when there is no one for helping.
I mean just one. stay away from things that stress you out. if you are confused, think for a moment. look around you and notice what makes you stressed. if people, it's good to reduce the conversation for a while. and stop writing or drawing things. just cry a lot because when you become stronger later, you can't cry like your weak self now. trust me.
