I don’t understand
Here i’ve been doing good for months had some bad days but not really lows and I’ve been clean. A little thought of it here or there but quick and not like they used to. But then today is bad. really bad. I haven’t had one of these in a minute. I’m not going to because i am stronger then this but I want to soo bad. Like it’s a need. Why can we be soo good and build up and work on this and then one day just one day and all of that poof is gone and it’s like u never left. your body all of a sudden needs it now.
@girlboss14 Like I've had that need to feel good. But relapsing won't give me the satisfaction and fulfillment and connection that I crave. It sucks and it can be really hard.
Often I'm reminded that my needs are legitimate, even if the way I try to fill those needs isn't practical. So are yours.
My heart goes out to you, fellow traveler.
