Remembering & Wanting to Forget....
It has been almost 2 years since I last self-harmed. Although sometimes it seems like the farther away I go from that day, the more I am tempted to restart. I see what I have done and what I could do all at the same time as though the images overlap, forming one tragic memory. I am overwhelmed and scared. I want to forget it ever happened and move on, but it is always on my mind.
@naturalbeauty16 - What initially helped you stop self harming? Did you find new coping mechanisms to help fill that need? Is it perhaps time to lean back on those coping mechanisms?
Ultimately self harm is an unhealthy action, but one that fills a need in your life. What need is it that it fills for you? What can you replace it with instead to feel that same relief without hurting yourself?
Stay strong, lovely - I believe in you.
@Anomalia Nothing helped me stop self-harming I simply just made myself stop. Cold turkey. It was hell, but I did it. Unfortunately I did not find a coping mechanism. Self-harm gave me control over my mental pain. When my heart would ache I would take it out on my arm. It made everything hurt less. Or when I went emotionally numb, it would make me feel again. What I felt after cutting wasn't pain, but relief. I think that's why the temptation is so strong.
I hope that things get better for you.