Trigger warning: Self harm
I've been clean for many months, but today I lost it, my university called in because I haven't paid the fees yet, I know my dad is struggling but I asked them not to and told them Ill join a less expensive college in another state, I understand they're concerned and all bs but they told me that if I leave they'll be bored or miss me, I feel guilty for feeling this way but WHY AM I BEING FORCED TO SACRIFICE MY MENTAL HEALTG AND CAREER so that they wont feel empty and when we have to pay the fees my dad keeps calling me how im burden to them all of this happened today on my 18th birthday Jan 7 like all of my friends had a perfect 18th bday here i am starving, loosing appetite and self harming myself i tried not doing it so much but i could not control
@intellectualZebra9433
Hey, sweetie. First of all, happy belated 18th birthday. I'm so proud of you for being clean for many months, and one setback doesn't erase all that progress. You're incredibly strong. The situation with college and your family is tough, but it's not your fault. You have every right to pursue your dreams and take care of your mental health. It might feel dark now, but this is just a moment. There are always options and people who will support you in the right way. You matter, and your future is bright.
I don't know what I can do to help you, but I am here with you. Would you like to come up with some alternative coping mechanism ?
