Sinful
I did it again and I feel so f*cking sinful. I can't go to therapy until January because money issues but I might actually snap. Its like this demon inside me craving to come back..finally I think I'm happy and then suddenly its right back..and I hurt myself...I usually just c*t or scratch but I can't drinking take this anxiety anymore, im just counting down the days until I can go to therapy. I don't have anyone else to tell and its scary to tell my mom. Because she'd probably limit everything... I don't know what to do, I want to go to heaven but..
@Kat926483
I'm really sorry you're going through this. It sounds like you're having a really tough time with your thoughts and self-harm urges. Money problems can make getting help harder, and I'm sorry that it's stopping you from getting the support you need right now. I know it can be discouraging when you have good days but then feel bad again. It also seems like you're struggling with your religious beliefs and what your mental health means for you. It looks like you feel really alone right now because talking to your mom isn't an option. It can be scary to think about how someone might react, especially if it might make things worse. I know listeners aren't the same as therapy, but how do you feel about getting support from listeners either in private messages or on the forums? Let us know how we can help make things a bit easier for you.
