4 times……

last year, I was down bad, I mean I’m still down bad but last year I was really down bad. I 12 years old, the first trauma inducing incident was around June when I was telling my cousin about my gender orientation some guy started screaming at me about “god made you a man!” And “f- you!” I never really believed in Christianity, I still don’t. The next thing that happened, I remember the exact day, September 15th, my cat was thrown into a table by my dog Marley, killing her in seconds, I was right there. I buried her the following Saturday. Around November, I went to school one day and I had forgotten to take my medicine, I got a horrible migraine that day, after school I sat in a chair in a library, I was crying because of my headache and very homophobic boys were *** about me being bisexual, next thing I know one of the boys walks up to the chair, pulls out his baguette and rubs my head with it! Then the other guy walks up to the chair I was on and flips it over, that’s when I had enough and started screaming at them, obviously the library didn’t like that so they confronted me about why I was screaming, I told them everything while balling my eyes out. Luckily there was a camera and it caught everything. I went home that day and I had a talk to my mom about it, since she’s the only one of my parents that knows I’m bisexual. About 20 days later, I had to my dog chubs down, we had chubs for 16 years prior and we were all devastated. Thats all it took for me to attempt “soul takeaway” iykyk. Through the rest of November until around Christmas I tried it 4 times… talk about Christmas cheer.