Relationship and self love

I got to experience the most toxic relationship ever in my entire existence, and it got me doubting myself and thinking little of myself cause this person that i deeply loved and cared for took his time to compare me with someone I don’t even know and also brought me down countless of times made feel I was crazy for reacting to the hurtful things that he does and continually gaslight and manipulate me and it ended. Now I think I have a trauma bond with him and I’m struggling to start feeling like me again