i am so sorry

i am so sorry i hurt u. anger took over my mind and body. i am gaining that control back and although i can not take back mistakes i made and people i hurt, i can make a CHANGE and Never make that mistake and let anger take control again.

he was the first person i ever Felt like i belonged with. i connected with him on every level possible. he made me want to b a better person. i gv him my heart and i lost him thru the mistakes i made. the anger ran him away.and me not being completely honest with him ran him away. i felt so happy and complete for the first time n my life i didnt want to bring up negative things n fear of exactly what happened. losing him. now i lost my best friend/love/partner and i literally feel so lost. i Want to b with him so bad it hurts. i have reached out and got no response. its been almost 3 months. everybody tells me to get over it, time will heal, etc. but im content with loving him forever. God knows what i need and who i need n my life. If he wants me, he will make an attempt to call, txt, Some form of communication. I dont wana fight and go back to the past , i want to start new and start on a fresh foundation built from trust and love. so if God has intended that to happen , then it will.