This really sucks
Yesterday afternoon my boyfriend of 5 years broke up with me. I’m sure this is something a lot of people say but we didn’t have a bad relationship. Up until yesterday, there wasn’t a doubt in my mind that we were getting married. He is a nurse and with COVID and everything, life has been really stressful. He broke up with me because he says he’s unhappy and even though this is hard he thinks it’s for the best. He’s genuinely a good person and it almost makes all of this harder because I can’t even be mad at him. He has been really helpful and supportive. He talked to me for hours in the middle of the night last night through a panic attack and again this morning. I’m trying to post here and find a way to get things out without bothering him. I don’t want to get my hopes up too much, but ideally he’ll decide that I’m not the reason he’s unhappy but I guess whatever happens happens. I don’t want to keep texting him and calling him and the he cut me off because it isn’t healthy, ya know? I’m almost 27 and he’s almost 25 (both birthdays within the next month and a half) so this isn’t a high school break up. I’ve dealt with really awful break ups and really awful relationships but this doesn’t compare in the slightest. The absolute worst breakup and the best relationship. It just feels like everything is falling apart.