The feeling of emptiness and longing

I've tried dating in the past.

Those guys took advantage of me.

So I pretty much wrote of dating...

For years

But then I meet my best friend, the guy who is everything I ever wanted wrapped up in a quirky and adorable bow.

He's loving, protective, loyal, trustworthy, and the only person that walks this Earth that can make me laugh when I've hit rock bottom with depression.

The only problem is that he's Aromantic and will never be interested in romance.

He knows how I feel but we don't talk about it much.

I'm haunted with the what if's

When I fall asleep at night I crave for someone to hold me.

He shows affection in ways he can, nudges, pokes, hugs, kind words, and smiles.

It's never enough

When I cry I dream of someone to dry my tears and tell me how much they love me

When Im lonely all I want is someone to be with, to spend time with and shower with love and affection.

I know I'm only 18 and there's so many fish in the sea but I'm scared I'll never find someone that sees me the way he does, all my mistakes and flaws and chooses to love me ten times more than anyone else does.